Time For Starting Over
Why I've Been Inactive & How I'm Getting Back on Track and Moving Forward
Join me on this journey of self-discovery and self-empowerment
My original vision for Vintage Yoga was to approach yoga from a more traditional style. No hot yoga, no hanging yoga, just yoga in a more traditional sense. Yoga Teacher Training was an amazing experience but one of the things I learned is that I still have so much to learn about yoga, it’s history, philosophy, technique, etc.. I think that’s part of the reason I panicked. I just felt like I wasn’t prepared enough to do it. The voice in my head had so much to say about my plan, “why anyone would want to do yoga with you? There are already so many great resources online and lots of people already out there teaching yoga and lots of them are doing a great job. Who do you think you are?”
During my absence from Vintage Yoga, I did a lot of inner work. Working on my mindset, my confidence, and trying to understand what was holding me back. I already knew what was holding me back, I just didn’t know why or what to do about it. Fear is what was holding me back. I was afraid of what people would think and this fear has been a driving force nearly all my life. This time, in which I stepped back and really began to work on ME, helped me discover the source of the fear. What I’ve come to realize is that once you understand the root cause of a problem, you are empowered to create a solution.
Part of the solution for me was that I needed to start appreciating me. I needed to be kinder to myself and believe that I am capable of doing the work and being good at it.
When I considered that there are nearly eight billion people in the world, it made me realize that while there are thousands of people “out there” teaching yoga, no one can do it the way I do it. No one has my voice, my style, or my personality. I also discovered that I AM a TEACHER. I’ve been a teacher nearly all my life. It's what I know and it’s what I’m good at. Now instead of teaching research skills to middle schoolers or grammar to elementary students, I am teaching a whole new subject (yoga) to a completely different audience (grownups!). When I first became a schoolteacher, I didn’t learn everything I needed to know while I was in college. I figured it out as I went along.
I now understand that I don’t have to know all there is to know. I just need to do the best I can and continue to learn. And that’s what I plan to do. I invite you to come along for the journey. Next time, I’ll share with you another goal that I have for Vintage Yoga. I hope you can join me.